My thoughts on baneful magick
CONTENT WARNING: NON-GRAPHIC DISCUSSIONS ON SPIRITUAL REVENGE, SEXUAL ASSAULT, VIOLENCE, KARMA, AND WANTING TO HURT CERTAIN PEOPLE.
I just did a ritual for my healing journey. It involved some drastic methods, let me say it was red body fluid (no, I did not harm myself, more like, it was that time of the month…), a doll, and some pins. Also, a flame to burn some things when finished. Yes, you heard me right. I’m one of those occultists who do baneful magick if it’s absolutely necessary. Please hear me out, though… I would never curse a person. I only do hexes, and since I’m not curse, I would never do something potentially deadly! Only curses can kill, hexes “just” helps karma to bite someone in the ass faster…
HEXES CAN BE SELF-DEFENCE
It’s always a spectrum. Some witches and occultists have no problem with cursing someone. I can’t harm someone to that extent. Some witches don’t do baneful magick at all, and I used to be one of them. Until I was violently raped by two men in 2020. It started something in me, and it was right then and there that I decided that sometimes you need to defend yourself, even if it means revenge and helping the universe with the karma.
I had no way of escaping the situation with these two men, so it’s self-defence, but after the traumatic event instead of during it. It’s my way of defending my soul and personhood. And hexing doesn’t kill, but it can hurt and bring about uncomfortable consequences for the target. I wouldn’t recommend a beginner witch to do this, though, but for me, I know exactly what I’m doing.
I never said I was an angel!
RULES
I have set some rules for baneful magick and the practice. I can read about everything, but that doesn’t mean I’m comfortable or have the moral standing that l can do everything! I only hex. Jinxes are too small and seem petty in nature, and I don’t do these kinds of things lightly! So I avoid jinxes as well. Hexes are right in the middle, and I only do them when it’s absolutely necessary! If someone is mean, I wouldn’t do it, it takes more to make me this furious…
WHY DON’T YOU JUST FORGIVE?
I don’t believe in forgiving everything. Unless it helps you move on. People are not entitled to being forgiven. And I feel like it’s not necessary for me to move on, and the people who raped me will never come to a place where they will earn to be forgiven. Rage is a driving force. So I will use it in my healing journey.
Only the most privileged people who don’t understand trauma would suggest you forgive a rapist…
IT’S A TIME AND A PLACE, AND IT’S NOT EVEN THAT OFTEN
The last time I did this kind of ritual was 2 years ago, or maybe it was even more. And it was the same people back then. I did it today just because the day of the assault was May 25, 2020, and now it’s the night between May 26 and 27. I had a rough couple of days, and this month is particularly difficult due to what happened. Because anyone who knows a little bit about trauma knows that the body remembers. So I needed to do this.
CONCLUSION
Not everything can be white light and fluffy clouds. Some of us don’t only do light work, but both light and dark work. I think it’s necessary for the balance and especially when you’re a survivor of sexual assault and similar crimes.